Grrrr....

I still can't talk. It is sooooooooo frustrating. Ever since the week before my birthday (late March) I have been having trouble with my voice. It hurts by the end of the week and the weekend helps me recover, then I'm back at it at work on Monday. By this week it was brutal. It was bad Wednesday and I had a migraine so I called in sick and spent the day sleeping mostly. Thursday I still couldn't talk but I figured I might as well go in.

I tried to take calls for about 90 minutes when I gave up. I said I'm not sick, but I can't talk it hurts too much. So they found me something else to do (and they weren't too happy about it - so frustrating). So I spent my day doing orders on the comp which was fine with me. I would have been more than happy to go home too, and they almost wanted me to, but they have to pay me either way, they might as well pay me to stay at work and do something.

This weekend Rich is on nights. That has definitely helped. The problem is I'm so freaking lonely without anyone to talk to, and I can't talk on the phone. This morning I woke up having not spoken at all since last night around 8pm, other than a quick good night to Rich on the phone. I thought I was doing better. A friend called to let me know a friend of ours had her baby this weekend. That conversation lasted about 3 minutes, then immediately after the phone rang and it was my mom. Another 3 minutes, and now I'm ready to swallow that stuff the dentist puts on you to numb you so I can't feel my vocal chords.

I can't sing, I can't talk, I can hardly cough or sneeze. I am getting exceedingly frustrated. Rich is terrible at charades and I think much faster than I write. Typing isn't bad, but I'm rarely at the comp with someone else there. At work I was able to respond to people in type, but at home it's not really that helpful. So off to church I will go, armed with steno pad and pen, feeling like a complete dork.

I did see the doc Friday night and she told me to rest it as much as possible for the next week and a half or so. She's referred me to a specialist cause she has no idea what it is. So keep your fingers crossed this will just clear up on it's own.

Back to being silent.